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Louise Redknapp took a savage swipe at her ex-husband Jamie as she reflected on her struggles with 'mum guilt.'
The singer, 46, who has sons Charles, 16, and Beau, 12, with the former footballer, said she 'didn't remember' her ex asking if the family would 'be alright' when he travelled abroad, while she spent years juggling her career with motherhood.
In an extract from her new memoir You've Got This, Louise also admitted she felt judged by other mums when she and Jamie split, and for months was terrified of even going to the school gates.
© Provided by Daily MailDig: Louise Redknapp, 46, took a savage swipe at her ex-husband Jamie, 47, as she reflected on her struggles with 'mum guilt'
In her biography as published by The Sun, Louise appeared to make a dig at Jamie over caring for their sons during their 19-year marriage.
She said: 'When it comes to careers versus family, it is natural for women to feel guilty.
'I don't ever remember Jamie packing his bags to go to Vegas for five days and asking if we would be alright.'
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© Provided by Daily MailTough: The singer who has sons Charles, 16, and Beau, 12, with the former footballer, said it's 'more natural' for women to feel guilty about juggling their careers with motherhood
Louise went onto admit she felt other mothers were judging her for deciding to split from Jamie, and used to 'feel really 'uncomfortable being eyed by other parents at the school gates.
She added: 'I felt like all the ''clipboard mums'' were looking at me and judging me for my choices.'
On Friday Gemma also reflected on her battle with OCD after shooting to fame in the band Eternal.
She explained how she felt it was 'the only thing I could control in my life' during a candid interview on This Morning.
Although grateful to be in such a successful girl group, Louise said 'the anxiety of not being in control' and being away from home at a young age did take its toll.
© Provided by Daily MailUpsetting: In her new memoir You've Got This, Louise also said she felt other mothers judged her for deciding to split from Jamie
© Provided by Daily MailCandid: On Friday Gemma also reflected on her battle with OCD after shooting to fame in the band Eternal
Louise said: 'For many years I suffered from OCD in a really big way, looking back I think it most probably came from it being the only thing I could control in my life.
'Going on you do work and start to understand the illness a bit more, but I hope people out there that suffer might realise they're not alone.
'I had it really badly. It used to take me 20 minutes to go to bed at the night. I've come a long way since those days. And it has helped me to write it all down.'
Talking about Eternal, Louise said: 'I was very young, in a band with amazing talented singers and something I battled for many years and now realise in my 40s, is I always felt like I was catching up like maybe I wasn't good enough to be there.
© Provided by Daily MailThrowback: Although grateful to be in a successful girl group, Louise said 'the anxiety of not being in control' and being away from home at a young age did take its toll (pictured in 1995)
'And that's something people in all walks of life feel... and we traveled a lot and being so young away from mum, it really took its toll the anxiety of not being in control of own life.
'Looking back I could have dealt with things and maybe not worried so much.'
Louise was in the band, which formed in 1992, with Easther and Vernie Bennett as well as Kéllé Bryan.
However, she added: 'I'm so lucky to have been in the music industry when 1.5m albums in one year was possible.
'And in the book I write about how I've realised we're so unlikely to acknowledge our achievements, because we don't like to come across like we're big headed. and I've tried to point out it's ok to be proud of what we've done in the book.'
© Provided by Daily MailSupport: Louise also gushed about her mum Lynne and thanked her for a lifetime of support
What is obsessive compulsive disorder?
Obsessive compulsive disorder, usually known as OCD, is a common mental health condition which makes people obsess over thoughts and develop behaviour they struggle to control.
It can affect anyone at any age but normally develops during young adulthood.
It can cause people to have repetitive unwanted or unpleasant thoughts.
People may also develop compulsive behaviour - a physical action or something mental - which they do over and over to try to relieve the obsessive thoughts.
The compulsive behaviour temporarily relieves the anxiety, but the obsession and anxiety soon return, causing the cycle to begin again.
OCD can be controlled and treatment usually involves psychological therapy or medication.
It is not known why OCD occurs but risk factors include a family history of the condition, certain differences in brain chemicals, or big life events like childbirth or bereavement.
Source: NHS
Louise also admitted she had doubted whether to include her struggles in her book, You've Got This, before deciding they might help people with their own battles.
Elsewhere in the interview, Louise gushed about her mum Lynne and thanked her for a lifetime of support.
She said: 'It makes me well up, I'm so fortunate to have her and she gives the honest truth and is completely on my side even when I don't like what she has to say!
'It was me and mum on our own for many years, without her going without things and giving me opportunities I'd never have got to stage school. I'm very grateful.'
© Provided by Daily MailEmotions: She also admitted to feeling 'lonely, anxious and unimportant' in the last few months of her marriage to ex-husband Jamie in her new book You've Got This
Louise also reflected on how she came to write a book - which she said was 'not an autobiography' but instead drew on her experiences and what's helped her.
Admitting it's been a 'scary but lovely process', Louise said: 'Over the past 25 years I've experienced lots of things and some lessons have been bitter sweet.
'When I was asked to do a book I wasn't sure what was the right thing to do, but I love books which I can open on any page and get a 'I've got this' feeling from.'
Louise recently revealed she was scared about writing about the last few years of her life that followed her divorce from ex-husband Jamie in her new book.
The media personality appeared on Wednesday's episode of The One Show and discussed her book You've Got This with hosts Alex Jones and Ronan Keating.
Asked what the hardest part of writing was, Louise admitted the most recent years of her life were tough to put down on paper following the former couple's split in 2017 but added the book 'isn't about being nasty about anybody'.
She said: 'Probably the last few years of my life [were the hardest]. I can talk about Eternal, being just me and my mum for a few years.
'The last few years I've learned so much. Those were the chapters I was most scared about putting out.
'This isn't a book about being nasty about anybody or hurting anybody, this is just me saying how I felt as a woman, as a mum, that got to a certain age in my life. Things got a bit far and I put it down on paper. It's what I learned from that time.'
Louise added that she was 'shocked' by the 'amount of judgement' she has faced being in the public eye in recent years, adding that her sons Charles, 16, and Beau, 12, have been her 'saviours'.
© Provided by Daily MailHonest: Louise recently said she was scared about writing about the last few years of her life that followed her divorce from ex-husband Jamie in her book
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